I Will Wait For You

SPIRIT & RELATIONSHIPS

Most recently a transcript I wrote of one of my favorite spoken word pieces – Little Girl –  has been receiving an abundance of pageviews. As as result, I decided to transcribe another spoken word piece that I adore. It highlights the importance of patience, especially when in/out of a relationship. In addition to reading this transcript I encourage you to listen to this spoken word piece by clicking the link provided below; after all, spoken word is meant to be heard. 

I Will Wait For You 

by 

Janette Ikz 

So it seemed that it was cool for everyone to be a relationship but me

So I took matters into my own hands and ended up with him

Him who displayed the characteristics of a cheater, a liar, an abuser, and a thief

So why was I surprised when he broke into my heart

I called 911 but I was cardiac arrested for aiding and abetting

Because it was me who let him in

Claiming we were “just friends”  

It was already decided for me that by the first date that even if he wasn’t

That I was going to make him the one

You know

I was tired of being alone

And I simply made up in my mind that it was about that time

So I decided to drag him along for the ride

Because I was always the bridesmaid and never the bride

A virgin in the physical but mentally just a grown woman on the corner in heat

Who was tired of the wait

So I was going to make him the one

He had a form of godliness, but not much

But hey I could change him, so I’ll take him

I mean he’s close enough

Ready to sell my aorta for a quarter not knowing the value or use to me

Arteries so clogged with my will it blocked His will from coming through me

So I thank Christ that His blood pressure gave this heart an attack

That flat lined my obscured vision

Put me flat on my back

Through my ignorance he saw

So through my sternum he sawed

And cracked open my chest to transplant Psalms 51:10

A new heart and a renewed right spirit within

So now I fully understand better yet I thoroughly comprehend

How much I need to wait for you

See the bad thing is that I knew he wasn’t you from the beginning

Because in the beginning it was the word

And he didn’t even sound or shine like your son

Out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks

And all he could whisper was sweet empty nothings, which meant nothing

He couldn’t even pray when I needed him to

Asking him to fast would be absurd

So forget about being cleansed and washed with water through the word

But I know you

You’re already praying for me, even never have met me  

Let me assure you I will wait for you

I will no longer date, socialize, or communicate with carbon copies of you

To appease my boredom or to quench my thirsty desire for attention

And short lived compliments from sort-of-kind-of’s

You know

He sort-of-kind-of right, but sort-of-kind-of wrong

His first name Luke

His last name Warm

I won’t settle for false companionship

I won’t lay in the embrace of his arms attempting to find some closeness

But never feeling so far apart because I just want to be held

Because all I got to do is

Say no

No more almost sessions of almost coming close

Passing winks and buying drinks and I’ma, I’ma, I’ma flirt

Who flirts with the ideology of

 “Can you just tell me how much I can get away with and still be saved?”

No more

I’ll stay in my bed alone and write poems about how I will wait for you

He won’t even come close, our fingers won’t even interlock

We won’t even exchange breaths…  

I will no longer get rated down from so called friends

And family talks about the concern for my biological clock

When I serve the author of time

Who is not subject to time but I am subject to Him

He has the ability to stop, fast forward, pause, or rewind at any given time

So if we could role play you would be Abraham and I would be Sarah

Or you could be Isaac and I could be Rebecca

A Servants answered prayer

I am bone of your bone, flesh of your flesh

Made up of your rib – Adam

And once we meet

Like electrons I would be bound to your nucleus completely indivisible – Atom    

We even speak the same math

1 plus 1 plus 1 equals 3, which really equals 1 if you add them

We were all created in his image

But you have the ability to reflect, project, and even detect the son

If I were to explain what you look like you would have to look like a star

As son of the son

I would gain energy simply from the light that you shine on me

I would need you in order to complete my photosynthesis

I await your revelation but once again from the genesis

I will wait for you, and I will know you

Because when you speak I will be reminded of Solomon’s wisdom

Your ability to lead will remind me of Moses

Your faith will remind me of Abraham

Your confidence in God’s word will remind me of Daniel

Your inspiration will remind me of Paul

Your heart for God will remind me of David

Your attention to detail will remind me of Noah

Your integrity will remind me of Joseph

And your ability to abandon your own will will remind me of the Disciples

But your ability to love selflessly and unconditionally will remind me of Christ

But I won’t need to identify you by any special Mathews or any special Marks

Because his word will be tatted all over your heart

And you will know me, and you will find me

Where the boldness of Esther meets the warm closeness of Ruth

With the hospitality of Lydia is inline with the submission of Mary,

Which is engulfed in the tears of a praying Hannah 

I will be the one drenched in Proverbs 31 waiting for you

But to my father

My father who has known before I was birthed into this earth

Only if you shall see fit

I desire your will above mine, so even if you call me to a life of singleness

My heart is content with you the one who is [Him]

You are the greatest love story ever told

The greatest love ever known   

You’re forever my judge and I’m forever your witness

And I pray that I’m always found on a mission about my father’s business

I will always be yours and I will always wait for you Lord

More than the watchmen wait for the morning

More than the watchmen wait for the morning

I will wait 

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